Lyrics from my journal entry:

The Original Blueprint Inside Me, the One Who Knows, accepts how I've been conditioned. Thank you for a blessing in disguise - the time out we have had to take due to pandemic restrictions. Thank you for showing up world trade and economic warfare under the dispirited 'guise of a virus'. Fast tracking the release of my dependence and fragility of money-trees and the psychological impossibility of masculinity, had over me. Thank you for bringing equality and humanity to the forefront.

If we sing the song of consciousness till we feel the burn of truth, we throw a burst of fire into the darkness of psyche so we can see what we’re doing... what we’re truly doing, not what we wish to think we’re doing. This is the untangling of your feelings and the beginning of understanding why love and life are to be lived by the bones.

COVID19 is turning out to be an empirical evidence trail of what has been created by us all in service so far. And I'm becoming clearer and clearer in this new eclipse tunnel.
 
Since COVID19, I have noticed how major before and after shifts in my beliefs and personal constructs are happening without any intervention even before I see them. This is a retrospective Reset process collapsing time, revealing 'The Original Blueprint Inside Me, the One Who Knows'.

Making it up as I go along. So I keep on evolving further following my own unique blueprint, feeling even more profoundly the chasm between myself and my family, friends, community, humanity. At this stage it feels lonely, as there are even fewer fellow outliers.  That’s because to get to this place you have to have gone through a deep transformation on so many levels, so many times.  You have to be totally committed to yourself -  not so concerned with what anyone else thinks of you. 

Between now and thru these COVID19 times, be alert for unexpected shifts in your life stream as accelerated timelines overwrite the past.  The dimensional flux synthesises parts of your Self you’ve never encountered before so your tastes, preferences, likes, dislikes, memories, allegiances and actions all change simultaneously. These are simply resolutions, resurrections or revelations of the higher mind. The blinking in and out of different states of consciousness is a physical sensation. It can feel disorienting, frightening or fascinating depending on your perspective. 

Let creative unfolding replace goals, plans or linear thinking. Become indifferently engaged. Passively dynamic. These ideas, this wisdom and this knowing do not come from striving, analysing or willpower. They come from waiting, watching, listening, being curious, making space. The quieter, more available you are, the more obvious the solution or the next step. There is nothing you can do to speed up the arrival of the insights or ideas and the harder you try the more counter productive.

Just be willing to love and be loved unconditionally and to have your personal thinking about yourself and life disrupted, disturbed, and disrobed, revealing within, the creative source, potential, humility and 'The Original Blueprint Inside Me, the One That Knows'.